Of all the things I’ve done, I believe fully that finding the courage to get to know you again was my greatest accomplishment.
You cannot begin to understand how who I have become is
Entirely affected by all the ways you used to
Look at me.
I am afraid that I peaked entirely too early in my childhood,
Making our time more and more perfect each time
I daydream it back into existence,
Each time I fall asleep again to your non-breath and
Make you non-smile with my recollections.