Losing you only ever bothers me in night sweats.
I wake up thinking of you,
Your careful patterns radiating in my mind and
Through me and my dream states.
I cannot rationalize us any longer,
My mouth turns off but my brain leaps on.
I remember our story like an old one we were told when we were kids,
Except the climax is different than I remember-
The issue has always been unwittingly the same:
You and your loyalty.
You can’t blame yourself for the things you’ve lost and never (really, entirely) had.